Something more important than courage

So I'm two months deep on this "project" and Ive been exercising regularly, eating healthy and sticking with the portioning...And I'm not gonna lie it sucks so bad sometimes, but it doesn't suck to see the amount of weight i have lost and the way i feel. Currently i am at 188lbs which means, that's right assholes I have reached and exceeded my weight loss goal of losing 25lbs. So far I have lost 29lbs and have gained a great deal of endurance and strength. I still am going to continue to work out and try to lower my body fat. I want to get it somewhere around 10% and maintain the same weight with added muscle. Also i still cannot run a full 3 miles but am working on that. My diet is now much more healthier, breakfast usually consist of something like a small portion of oatmeal and fruit in the morning (i switch off with protein shakes and cereal sometimes). Dinner and lunches are light with some variation of chicken and almost always vegetables. The meals could be better I mean nothing will ever take the place of a big slice of pizza or a double meat cheeseburger but I no longer feel lazy or tiresome after meals. Whats best is that because I have cut back on drinking and other bad habits my mind is clearing, and I am able to focus more. It has been a long time since I accomplished anything, even something as small as losing a couple of pounds. But like i said in previous post this helps me understand that with struggle comes progress, and that nothing is ever given, instead everything is earned. Getting my weight down and maintaining a healthy lifestyle is one small step towards a overall long term goal of living a successful life. Now, I better understand that in order to meet the expectation I have for myself I must struggle for it...every...single...day...because in this life there are no Cinderellas...I look toward a future and though it may look scary, I am more scared of what I will not become. But, I will not let myself end where I started, I will not let myself finish where I began. I know what is in within me, even if others do not...if you look at me you may not see it, but I have something more important than courage...I have patience...And I will become what I know I am. Peace

never give up

So I have been working out steadily for the past couples of weeks. And, with the exception of briefly injuring my knee things are looking good. I am down to 200 lbs and am looking to loose about another 10-15lbs of fat, continue adding more muscle and building my endurance to the point that i can run at least 3 miles none stop (not keeping time). I still haven't quit smoking but I am working on cutting back drastically. I wont lie I have cheated a couple of times but I am still determined and have adjusted to the routine of working out regularly. Its weird i find myself at h.e.b. reading the ingredients and nutritional facts of everything i eat. trying to keep sodium to a minimum, no fried foods, bread, pasta, or cheese...man that takes a lot of shit away that i love but i remind myself that every little time i cheat i just cheat myself...Though i have become adjusted to working out i prolly will change up my routine from the conventional free weight work outs to hitting a punching bag and a series of different body exercises that don't require weights, just to keep my self from getting bored or my muscles from plateauing... recently I've thought of the goals that I have accomplished through life, and there aren't many...i think in a weird way that if i can accomplish this small goal then i can remember want it feels like to struggle and achieve what I set out to do. peace.

p.s. What r your thoughts on this?

the time is here, my body is focused, my minds in gear!!

So I put "Project Loose an Olson Twin" on hold for a while...Aight fuck you i know what you thinking "I knew you weren't gonna do it"...well I'm gonna do it know sucka...it was just that a full time school and work schedule don't leave to much time to fit in a solid work out (or plan a healthy meal for that matter)so I just lost my motivation...alright enough excuse...Anyway on a good note Im down to 210lbs which means l have in fact lost weight. HA!...And considering it is the new year and that I will not be attending school this semester (that's a whole other blog I'll post later) I will have much more time to utilize. Also I have started working over night, kinda sucks cause I can't chill, stay out and booze it like I usually would. But I am thinking of that as good thing because not drinking allows me to save money and get into better shape...or is that just rationalizing a shitty work schedule?...you decide. And lastly smoking cigarettes is also done...wow! There. That's all I'm giving up for now!!
So tomorrow I start the weight training and jogging at the gym. And as originally planned smaller portions and adding some more fruits vegetables in the ol' diet. Small steps to help contribute to an over all greater "project", ya know.Any way as always any tips or advice always welcome. I'll try to update this regularly. Peace.

Introducing

So its here. The time has come. Its official I have reached the highest weight I have ever been at in my life. And, am currently in probably the worst shape of my life. My endurance is comparable to that of an 80 year old asthmatic. My eating habits are sporadic. Nutrition is not in my vocabulary. So the other day when I went to the doctor and learned that I weigh 217lbs, it came as no surprise. According to Google at my height (5'11") is should weigh somewhere between 155lbs-189lbs...wait WTF. 155! Fuck You...i also checked my body mass index and that is near 30%...ok it is 30%...the average non-athlete it reads, should be somewhere close to 17%...hmmmm. So tomorrow it starts. "Operation loose an Olsen Twin!". I'm thinking I'm gonna start by cutting back on the drinking, stop eating after 11pm and portion all my meals. Do this followed by some light jogging, should help get me started.There is a gym here at work so its convenience should help encourage me to hit the weights or do some cardio. Eventually i hope to start running outside. Haven't really set a goal yet but im thinking somewhere close to 190lbs...so about 25lbs.
So If anyone is ready this and has any tips or comments let me know.