Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Something more important than courage

So I'm two months deep on this "project" and Ive been exercising regularly, eating healthy and sticking with the portioning...And I'm not gonna lie it sucks so bad sometimes, but it doesn't suck to see the amount of weight i have lost and the way i feel. Currently i am at 188lbs which means, that's right assholes I have reached and exceeded my weight loss goal of losing 25lbs. So far I have lost 29lbs and have gained a great deal of endurance and strength. I still am going to continue to work out and try to lower my body fat. I want to get it somewhere around 10% and maintain the same weight with added muscle. Also i still cannot run a full 3 miles but am working on that. My diet is now much more healthier, breakfast usually consist of something like a small portion of oatmeal and fruit in the morning (i switch off with protein shakes and cereal sometimes). Dinner and lunches are light with some variation of chicken and almost always vegetables. The meals could be better I mean nothing will ever take the place of a big slice of pizza or a double meat cheeseburger but I no longer feel lazy or tiresome after meals. Whats best is that because I have cut back on drinking and other bad habits my mind is clearing, and I am able to focus more. It has been a long time since I accomplished anything, even something as small as losing a couple of pounds. But like i said in previous post this helps me understand that with struggle comes progress, and that nothing is ever given, instead everything is earned. Getting my weight down and maintaining a healthy lifestyle is one small step towards a overall long term goal of living a successful life. Now, I better understand that in order to meet the expectation I have for myself I must struggle for it...every...single...day...because in this life there are no Cinderellas...I look toward a future and though it may look scary, I am more scared of what I will not become. But, I will not let myself end where I started, I will not let myself finish where I began. I know what is in within me, even if others do not...if you look at me you may not see it, but I have something more important than courage...I have patience...And I will become what I know I am. Peace